Moment of Weakness

I had a moment of self weakness last night. For a few moments I let my mind convince me that I was trapped where I am. It was only about twenty minutes but not something that I want to revisit. I can't do that and don't want to go back to that place. I doubted myself. Now, I know that I am not perfect and have a lot to learn but I do have skills and am not worthless. I felt trapped in my position at work and like I would never be able to leave it. That's not the case, I can get any skills that I need and will have them when I need to. But I have a lot more than what I am currently using right now. I just must remember that I am resourceful and have good instincts. I am worth more than just staying put. I just need to find something I am passionate about. But I am glad that was just a passing moment. But I also learned something interesting, in our moments of self doubt, the truth will eventually shine through.

On another note please take a look at the date - October 16, 2009 - and it was frickin' snowing this morning! Why can't the weather just wait? I'm not ready to turn in my sandals just yet for boots (that I have to buy) or move into frumpy sweater weather. Looks like the tires are going to have to wait for my Jeep too - balanced this month's budget wrong unfortunately. Such a dummy sometimes! That's okay, I will focus on getting new contacts first and other yearly appointments out of the way. Not looking forward to any of them! I hate going to the doctor and dentist. I think I can wait until December/January for the dentist (hopefully). Too many appointments to make, too many things to do. But I like being busy - and I will slow down this weekend (haha - well at least to some extent).

Edit - 1:40pm

Yeah, just felt like I wanted to add to this because I am extremely giddy today and have no idea why. Part of me wants to break out and dance in my underwear and another part of me wants to just go get all glammed up. But I will get there sometime soon. Tonight I'm going to get some beauty sleep, if I can sleep. At the moment, even though I am yawning, I don't feel sleep coming any time soon. Time for a good movie and snuggling with my ducky pants . . . ooooh add some cheese dip and we're in business.